Not good enough...

Today is not a good day... Even though I look very nice today and that always helped me in a good way, I just feel that today is not good enough. Not good enough... Apparently, this seems to be the motto of the day, every single day.  Do good and you will receive good. That's what humanity thought us... But what do you do when humanity doesn't play by the essential rules of the Universe? You do good?  I like to think about myself as a good person, who does good things and expects good things in return... But not good enough... I always tend to reach perfection and when things get average or not good enough, it plays with my brain, with my ability of doing good.  Quite good, good, pretty good or not good enough were the expressions that always pissed me off, because I don't do average, I don't like average. But then  I get to that point where banality kicks in, even against my best efforts... I start levitating, losing my path... Wandering...  Why do good, when you have nothing in return?  The Universe is such an annoying thing!  I don't believe in destiny, but I believe in the laws of attraction. Do good and the Universe will help you... But I also believe in reincarnation... So I can also think that if I do good now, maybe in my next life I will have good.... What if it's my last one? What happens then? Today is not a good day... Do good, receive good... Wandering...